#134

for once in my life, i actually did something for me
to make me feel good about myself, to feel and know that i don't need peoples permission to do something for myself.
it felt so invigorating, and just, i don't even know how to describe what i felt.
i did it for the simple reason to remember who i am, and what i want from life.
what i did may be stupid and pathetic to some, but it's the closest thing i could've gotten to no one being able to see it.
because this is for me, not for you or anyone else.
it was amazing how the opportunity just arose, right at a time when i needed the most, to reassure myself.

and now, it's being taken away from me.
like everything else i have.

so once again, i'm back to asking myself 'who am i?'
cause i honestly wouldn't have a clue.