#184

i cant help but get emotional when i hear this song.

#183

last night, was amazing.
i love my boyfriend, so much.

#182

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this much.

#181

this is, adorable.

#180

i can't decide if i like the acoustic, better than the original. :/


// i've decided, the original is much better.
i don't even know how, or why i would even doubt that in the first place! aha.

#179

#178

#177

things you may not know about me:
1. i have an unhealthy obsession with icarly, john mayer and max bemis,
2. i want to collect all of dr suess' books, i think he is amazing.
3. no matter what colour i dye my hair, it always goes red.
4. i won't do anything unless it's written in a list.
5. i love disney movies.
6. Shakespeares works are incredible.
7. i was born with a 'strawberry patch' on my left thigh,.
8. i played piano for 8 years, or something.
9. i used to take singing lessons with jimmy barnes' niece, mariah.
10. i love 'let them eat cake', 'fallen', and 'ranked' magazines.
11. i want to secretly save up money so i can take Reece to Seattle one day.
12. i like getting piercings, and going on crazy rollercoasters for the thrill of it.
13. i write a lot of letters to people, but never send them, or give them to them.
14. i have one leg shorter than the other.
15. i tend to sit down a lot in the shower.
16. i'm quite the pessimistic.
17. i'm a quitter.
18. i collect too many little things that hold memories.
19. i like the smell of old second handbooks, and hairdresser spray bottle water.
20. i'll write more later..

#176

Dear Reece,

Love Bianca.

#175

:)

#174

<.rant>
i've forgotten what makes me happy.
life is getting thrown in my face, and i don't know if it's karma or if i'm just over reacting.
i'm not one to be all optimistic and confident about everything, but i'm trying so so hard.
every day feels like a week, and a weeks feels like years.
everything is a blur, a mess, a mix up.
i don't feel like i belong, anywhere.
i'm living to exist, but it doesn't really feel like it right now.
to exist right now, hardly feels like living.
i start year 12 in a couple of days, and i'm absolutely petrified.
i have two friends who i can rely on for anything, and a boy friend, who as close as i feel to him, i still feel so distant.
i wake up every day, get up and go outside. but i still feel like i'm stuck in bed with the lights turned low.
another year has gone by, and i have absolutely nothing to show for it.
i see people with talent, and adventure under their wings. stories to tell their future grandkids.
i want that. and all i can think about is how pathetic i am, and how useless i am to this world because i'm just sitting here writting about how pathetic i am rather than to suck it in and really try and build up my confidence to go out there and do something about it all.
all my life i've been treated as an adult, and irrelevant of the 'adventures' my family and i take part in now-a-days, it doesn't give back my childhood. the part that i'm meant to cherish the most.
this isn't a phase, this is my life. i guess i should learn to embrace it now, because it's all i'm going to have.
< / rant >

#173

I'd like to think that I believe in everything until it's proven.
I believe in fairies and dragons. Unicorns and mermaids.
Angels and ghosts, Santa and the Easter bunny.

Glitter is magic dust for the young and naivé.
Dreams come true if you have belief and faith.
Chocolate is for the broken hearted, and clicking your heals makes you
fly.
Happy endings happen to those who live for Walt Disney.
And music is for the soul, to live in a way in which we cannot.

Pain is nothing but a state of mind, and happiness really is where ever you want it to be.
Dandy Lions and eye lashes were the only way our wishes would come true.

i don't know, i guess i just wish i could go back to the simple days.
hskjlfnslfksn.

#172

i surrender, i surrender.

#171

I WANT THEM.

#170

#169

I think I just had an epiphany ...
will most definitely blog regarding it later.

#168

Dear Jenna,
This is just a note to let you know that I hate time zones.
The world should just have one time thingamajiggy and that's it.
Then you and I could always talk, instead of you signing online, and me having to go, visa versa.
You know I love you dearly, but I hate that we're so far apart.

yours sincerly, Bianca xo

#167

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#166

i don't think anyone realises how excited i am to see paramore this year.
it was the same feeling i had this same time last year about say anything, but for some reason that didn't kick in until i saw beautiful max up there on stage, then the tears started to flow.
but, just listening to paramore now, i can feel the build up of salty liquid within my tear ducts, its an amazing feeling. i honestly cannot wait. oh my god.

#165

i love how happiness can be caught in a photograph.
i hate how it doesn't last forever,