#133

act your fucking age, not your shoe size.
for fucks sake.

#132

I can't make my own decisions
Or make any with precision
Well maybe you should tie me up
So i don't go where you don't want me
You say that i've been changing
That i'm not just simply Ageing
Well how could that be logical?
Just keep on craming ideas down my throat
Woah

You don't have to believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger i might have to bend it back
And break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger i'll point you to the mirror

If Gods the game that you're playing
Well we must get more aquainted
Because it has to be so lonely to be the only one who's holy
It's just my humble opinion but it's one that i believe in
You don't deserve a point of view
If the only thing you see is you
Woah

You don't have to believe me
But the way i, way i see it
Next time you point a finger i might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger i'll point you to the mirror

This is the last second chance
(I'll point you to the mirror)
I'm half as good as it gets
(I'll point you to the mirror)
I'm on both sides of the fence
(I'll point you to the mirror)
Without a hint of regret i'll hold you to it

I know you don't believe me
But the way i, way i see it
Next time you point a finger i might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger i'll point you to the mirror

I know you won't believe me
But the way i, way i see it
Next time you point a finger i might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger i'll point you to the mirror.

paramore are so good. i can't wait for soundwave.

#131

so i just got back from the beach.

i kinda wondered off by myself for a bit, as i usually do.
i just sat for ages, thinking. about everything.
i mean, what else is there to do at a deserted beach?
anyway, i was sitting there and i had planned out like, three different kinds of blogs to write.
i kept saying them over and over in my head, because i knew i was going to forget them.
now i sit here, at my computer, with no recollection of what i was thinking. all i remember is little points here and there. like how when i draw lines in the sand, and the ocean comes up and washes it away, but the sand still maintains that slight ripple in itself, how that's sort of a metaphor for how no matter how hard we try to make a difference to ourselves, or in a community, it won't have a big enough impact to make everyone you want see it. just a few people that you don't even know. another was something like how when we're standing in the ocean, and the waves come flying towards us, it hits us. we change that wave for a split moment. it breaks apart to go around us. it made me think that sometimes when there's a problem or something that you know there's no way in hell you can avoid, you just need to let it hit you, because sooner or later, it's going to be okay. and everything's going to be back to normal, well as normal as normal as can. i don't know, i guess when i'm driving around later it'll hit me then i'll come back to write it, and i'll forget it again.
dammit, where's my note book!

#130

with this group of kids, there is never a dull moment.
no matter the period of time that we don't hang out, or talk- as soon as we're together again, it's like we never parted in the first place.
this is the kind of definition i would give for the title 'best friends', nothing else.
we're like the modern F.R.I.E.N.D.S, beat that.
a team, i love you guys.

#129

When i was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And cursed at the wind
He broke his own heart
And i watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that i promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe i know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And i've always lived like this
Keeping it comfortable, distance
And up until now
I'd sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know your leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Oh

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing.

#128

my eyes are so weary. all i want is sleep. to nap all day, every day.
to get lost in that little dream world i create every night.
i close my eyes so tight, that's where reality is for me. in my dreams.
things are so perfect there. things are the way i wish for them to be.
i can create or cut a character at any point, make a circumstance arise at any time or not.
whatever i says go, no one can have an influence, or change what i'm doing, what i'm saying.
it's all me, no one else.
i'm like god, in my own little movie. except it's not, it's reality. in my mind.
my little slice of heaven, to carry around in my back pocket.

#127

now that's cute!

#126

If it's not real, you can't hold it in your hand.
Or feel it with your heart.
And i won't believe it, but if it's true
you can see it with your eyes, or even in the dark.
And thats where I want to be, yeah.

#125

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#124

just look out, and dream. fantasize. explore the world in your seat, through your eyes.
imagine the world the way you want it to be, and that's all it will ever be. through your eyes.

#123

#122

#121

if only the nights weren't so cold.

#120

i need you so much closer.

#119

#118

Where have you been all day?
Ive been a mess. In a box, in a fix, in a trap, and I gotta get outta it.
Seems like its been to long, since yesterday.
What I need is a fix, or a cure, or your lips to take my pain away.
Im just a name, Im just a name to a face.
But you know this face so well. Oh yeah, you know this face so well.
But darling darling
I want you closer, closer. I want you closer, closer.
I want you closer.
Weve been out for days and days trying to see this town,
The way we thought that it could make it appear.
Its getting colder now, the lights are turning low and I want you more than near.
I want you closer, closer. I want you closer, closer.
I want you closer.
Seem like its been to long, since yesterday.
What I need is a fix, or a cure, or a kiss, or a smile, or this day, or just you to take the pain away.


I love you, Jenna.

#117

#116

i.
am.
so.
lost.

#115

i honestly cannot even begin to describe how fucking scared to death i am.

#114

it's hard to believe i wrote that.